My world came crashing down last month when I experienced the worst moment of my life. My doorbell eerily rang late in the evening. Once I flipped on the porch light, I realized my life and my children’s lives would never be the same. Illuminated in the darkness were four Air Force officers in service dress covered in the news of death. They delivered to me the words no wife ever wants to hear. My beloved husband was gone. Garrett’s life was cut short by a tragic accident. All my earthly plans, hopes, and dreams vanished there at the doorstep. “I’m not ready,” I pleaded with them over and over, thinking I could alter the forecast on this storm that raged ahead. But I knew deep inside there was no way of escaping this.
Drowning in pain, I was also certain of more. There was no way I was abandoning my Lord and Savior. I was not alone. He would carry me through this, each and every day. I knew I was going to cling to Him and take Him at His word, taking all that He offered. The tender mercy. (Luke 1:78-79) The One who fights for me. (2 Chronicles 20:15-17) The sufficient grace. (Hebrews 4:16) The towering rock of safety. (Psalm 61:2) The One who carries me. (Isaiah 40:11) The fullness of joy. (Psalm 16:11) The peace that passes all understanding. (Philippians 4:7) The rest for my weary soul. (Jeremiah 31:25) The strength that moves mountains. (Matthew 17:20) The light in darkness. (Psalm 36:9) The comfort and compassion. (Isaiah 49:13) The almighty protection. (2 Thessalonians 3:3) The One who transforms trouble to hope. (Hosea 2:15) The power that is made perfect in my weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9) The One who will work out His plans for my life. (Psalm 138:8) Everything that God promises…I was taking everything.
About a week after this terrible night, I read a devotion from the book Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman that said it best:
It is possible for believers who are completely willing to trust the power of the Lord for their safekeeping and victory to lead a life of readily taking His promises exactly as they are and finding them to be true.
It is possible to daily, “cast all anxieties on Him” (1 Peter 5:7) and experience deep peace in the process.
It is possible to have our thoughts and the desires of our hearts purified in the deepest sense of the word.
It is possible to see God’s will in every circumstance and to accept it with singing instead of complaining.
It is possible to become strong through and through by completely taking refuge in the power of God and by realizing that our greatest weakness and the things that upset our determination to be patient, pure, or humble provide an opportunity to make sin powerless over us. This opportunity comes from Him who loves us and who works to bring us into agreement with His will, and there by supplies a blessed sense of His presence and His power.
All these are DIVINE POSSIBILITIES. Because they are His work actually experiencing them will always humble us, causing us to bow at His feet and teaching us to hunger and thirst for more. We will never be satisfied with anything less--each day, each hour, or each moment in Christ, through the power of the Holy Spirit--than WALKING WITH GOD. H.C.G. Moule
We are able to have as much as God as we want. Christ puts the key to our treasure chest in our hands. And invites us to take all we desire. If someone is allowed into a bank vault, told to help himself to the money, and leaves with one cent, whose fault is it if he remains poor? And whose fault is it that Christians have such meager portions of the free riches of God? Alexander Maclaren
Despite my suffering, I am still praising my Savior who promises to bless me with His riches. I am going to cash in on all of His abundant blessings. The lyrics from the song “Blessed Assurance” held true in that moment, even when my story had a terrible turn, just as it held true the day before, when everything in life was going well, “This is my story. This is my song. Praising my Savior. All the day long.”